This has been a turbulent last two months; and I apologise.
It seems that D.P.'s daily work has finally caught up to me. I know I've said it many times in the past, but over the last little while I think I've finally been ready to admit it to myself: "Damn, I'm tired."
I don't know why, but maybe it's because I will have done 13 calls in 8 weeks; some of the back to back to back. Maybe it's because it's the end of the year already and things that you haven't really noticed before started to pile up in front of your eyes. Maybe it's because your realised that somehow, you've already lost out on a lot of chances to make changes and you're dreaming for more time to do more. Either way, ladies and gents... S.P. hates to admit this but he has to: Tired.
On the other hand, there's that voice that refused to be quieted. When D.P. is writing up paperwork between cases or when S.P. is dreaming about taking up the violin... that voice drones in the background, ever nagging: "Write more! Cut more! Sketch more! Colour more!... more, more, more~!!!" I don't know if anyone else here believes the gentle goading of muse of the old, inspiring artists of all kinds to push their limits to achieve greatness, but if there are muses, we've definitely got ourselves a very demanding one at work here. Maybe the muse is as frustrated as I am at the prospect that there are only 24 hours in a day and D.P.'s working hours take up about half of that; sometimes more. Perhaps we are as frustrated as the muse in knowing that for what it's worth the Phosphates are probably spreading himself too thin to be able to excel at anything in specific. Sometimes we collectively wonder just how long can we keep up with the "30-something man-child" mentality that is always hoping and wanting to get into new stuff.
I wonder, are the Phosphates having a quarter-life crisis? (Or was that mid-life crisis?)
Is it time already that I have to live vicariously through someone else?
What a scary prospect, that one.
But, hey... while we are on that topic...
A wonderful friend of mine on dA who goes by the name of
had written and self-published a novel called "The Spiders". It features a young boy who lived at the ends of the world in a dystopic future; a boy who wanted only to see the world... and the man who came with a proposition to make. You can find out more about his novel and place an order here: [link]
Support a budding writer, I say. Because we should all be allowed that one shining moment when our dreams become reality while we still have time. And time, the last time I checked, is a precious commodity. On the list of things to do:
1. Re-designing Shine Yuukuri, Steampunk Vocaloid [Started]
2. Inspired by: Swordman movies (1990, 1991, 1993) [Started]
3. League of Free Houses, TenRai Gaiden cast [Planning]
4. Episode #4 of Wheelchair Theatre [Planning]
5. Request from fan art from Granstream Saga [Started]
Prize for mini-contest winner what else... silver vulpes, of course! [DONE]
Collaboration with and [HIATUS] - did not hear from collaborators for a long while.
8. Kiriban 20,000 for As previously arranged. [Planning]
9. Making Haku Yowane sing! [HIATUS] - technical difficulties, please stand by.