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Tumbling down towards Wonderland

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 31, 2014, 4:35 PM
It's time for a change, I think. 
Life gets hectic sometimes, and sometimes in the hedonism of trying to capture it all, we lose sight of the little things. For example... sometimes the simplest things are the best of things. 

So this is a good time for a change, I think. 
As good as any, at the very least. 

So won't you come tumbling down the rabbit hole with me? 
Follow the white rabbit photo Picture33-1_zps4ba044dc.jpg

I am presently undergoing some career-changing process. It's a decision that took a long while coming. It's amazing what a second-opinion can do for you, really. In this case, it took colleagues, family, superiors and friends to make me realise just how bent out of shape I was trying to make everyone around me happy. And in this job, it's never easy to make everyone happy. So I was told that I can't keep going on like this: I was avoiding friends and family, I was either at work or asleep, and even that I wasn't sleeping much. And when I finally stopped to look at where I have been and what I've done to myself, I think it was finally time for me to understand that I can't go on anymore. It was time for a change. Fortunately, some of my colleagues and superiors agreed. 

So since the summer I've been on a modified schedule and spending time outside of my own discipline with the fully-fledged intention to switch out when the opportunity presents itself. It was a tad late in coming, perhaps. But then again, the White Rabbit is always late, isn't he? 
I am late! So very late! photo Picture38-1_zps3651a054.jpg

Perhaps this is the beginning of a new path, or maybe I've just plunged into the Rabbit Hole (wait, that's my home, isn't it? ^^;) But I guess I have finally realised just how tired I was and I was tired of being tired. I was tired of always having to screw up my courage and resistance in place for the sake of others. I am tired of being "Almost good enough" in entirely too many things. Too often I think to myself that I need to be better - no, "I want to be better!" - but while the spirit is willing, the flesh was too weak. So it's time for the doctor to heal himself, it seems. Just as I've been saying, it's not a sin to take care of oneself; because if you fall, what happens to those who depend on you? 

So, thank you very much for everyone who has been here with me. I can't thank you enough for keeping me up during the endless nights or the mental breaks you afford me through your  conversations and creative output. To the best of my abilities, I'll keep going to entertain you for as long as I can. And now that things have started to grind down a notch, perhaps it wouldn't be quite as difficult as it was before to keep trucking along. And perhaps, perhaps... I might even get to keep my head this time around! 

Welcome to Wonderland photo Picture33-2_zps2675b843.jpg
So... thanks for taking the leap of faith and following the White Rabbit. 

Speaking of which... 
We're getting closer to 40,000 views. If you're that special someone... let me know, won't you? And let me know what I can do for you!


List of things to do
:iconmaivory: Rumpelstiltskin from "Once Upon A Time."

________________________
Outro: 
1. Yes, that's me in the photos. I took them in my apartment today using a webcam. Sorry about the quality! I would say "please don't use them, but who would want to use a photo showing my apartment? ^^;
2. The "White Rabbit" concept, of course, came from the incomparable Lewis Carroll and his novel "Alice in Wonderland." 
3. The white-suited rabbit version?  Inspired by Kiyo Kyujuo's manga version of Trinity Blood. More specifically, the character Cain Knightlord in "Stand By Me." Reference here: www.zerochan.net/1666608#full
4. Yes, the rabbit is wearing -that- ring ( this one: dc496.4shared.com/img/-qQj7Qww… But it has a bigger brother now. You can see it on the Rabbit's lapel in the last picture. Not half bad!

 

Halloween in Wonderland by SinistrosePhosphate
Halloween in Wonderland
I am starting to think I'm a bad parent... It seems that I am playing favourites with my children. 
While Liam Windress is getting plenty of air time, with his weekly tea series, I just don't seem to have enough time to devote to my detective-thief-ambassador trio. For those of you who have been with me for a while, I hope you'll remember them as I present them to you. And for those of you who just joined me... I hope to introduce them to you. And this looks like as good an opportunity as ever. 

Happy Hallowe'en!Halloween Pumpkin, Evil Laugh 
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Tea with Liam - Dooars Tea by SinistrosePhosphate
Tea with Liam - Dooars Tea
Dooars is another tea-producing region in India. Just like Nilgiri, it's only recently that Dooars is getting international attention. Unfortunately, this close-cousin of Assam is suffering from civil unrest, high unemployment rate, rampant inequality and poverty as well as some real, genuine human tragedies. The Dooars has 158 gardens, the largest concentration anywhere in the country, and hardly any is in robust health, plagued by creaking infrastructure, resistance to technology, labour unrest over minimum wages and the deadly politics that is played around it. As recent as April of 2014, disgruntled labourers had hacked tea garden managers to death over the inequality in pay. Unemployment in these parts of north Bengal is rampant, prostitution common and trafficking a way of life with the mafia so entrenched that NGOs and government agencies can't break their vice-like grip. A lot of it has something to do with the fact that the former USSR, which used to take in large amounts of Indian exports, had collapsed and could no longer sustain such trades. 

Some people refer to illegal diamonds as "Blood Diamonds"; coffee from big plantations as "Slave Coffee"... perhaps it's time we look into "Tear Tea." 

 Technical details: 
1. Words hand-written with Dr. Ph. Martin's Bombay india ink with a C-5 and C-6 handwriting nib
2. Drawn with HB mechanical pencil and shaded with 2B & 3B graphite pencils.
3. Lined with Sakura Pigma Sensei 0.4cm.
4. Strathmore 300-series Mixed Media paper 5.5"x8.5" (14x21.6cm), 90lbs (190gsm)
5. Processing: PS4. (For cropping the image and contrast.)

For more "Tea With Liam": sinistrosephosphate.deviantart… or mannosephosphate.tumblr.com/
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Tumbling down towards Wonderland

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 31, 2014, 4:35 PM
It's time for a change, I think. 
Life gets hectic sometimes, and sometimes in the hedonism of trying to capture it all, we lose sight of the little things. For example... sometimes the simplest things are the best of things. 

So this is a good time for a change, I think. 
As good as any, at the very least. 

So won't you come tumbling down the rabbit hole with me? 
Follow the white rabbit photo Picture33-1_zps4ba044dc.jpg

I am presently undergoing some career-changing process. It's a decision that took a long while coming. It's amazing what a second-opinion can do for you, really. In this case, it took colleagues, family, superiors and friends to make me realise just how bent out of shape I was trying to make everyone around me happy. And in this job, it's never easy to make everyone happy. So I was told that I can't keep going on like this: I was avoiding friends and family, I was either at work or asleep, and even that I wasn't sleeping much. And when I finally stopped to look at where I have been and what I've done to myself, I think it was finally time for me to understand that I can't go on anymore. It was time for a change. Fortunately, some of my colleagues and superiors agreed. 

So since the summer I've been on a modified schedule and spending time outside of my own discipline with the fully-fledged intention to switch out when the opportunity presents itself. It was a tad late in coming, perhaps. But then again, the White Rabbit is always late, isn't he? 
I am late! So very late! photo Picture38-1_zps3651a054.jpg

Perhaps this is the beginning of a new path, or maybe I've just plunged into the Rabbit Hole (wait, that's my home, isn't it? ^^;) But I guess I have finally realised just how tired I was and I was tired of being tired. I was tired of always having to screw up my courage and resistance in place for the sake of others. I am tired of being "Almost good enough" in entirely too many things. Too often I think to myself that I need to be better - no, "I want to be better!" - but while the spirit is willing, the flesh was too weak. So it's time for the doctor to heal himself, it seems. Just as I've been saying, it's not a sin to take care of oneself; because if you fall, what happens to those who depend on you? 

So, thank you very much for everyone who has been here with me. I can't thank you enough for keeping me up during the endless nights or the mental breaks you afford me through your  conversations and creative output. To the best of my abilities, I'll keep going to entertain you for as long as I can. And now that things have started to grind down a notch, perhaps it wouldn't be quite as difficult as it was before to keep trucking along. And perhaps, perhaps... I might even get to keep my head this time around! 

Welcome to Wonderland photo Picture33-2_zps2675b843.jpg
So... thanks for taking the leap of faith and following the White Rabbit. 

Speaking of which... 
We're getting closer to 40,000 views. If you're that special someone... let me know, won't you? And let me know what I can do for you!


List of things to do
:iconmaivory: Rumpelstiltskin from "Once Upon A Time."

________________________
Outro: 
1. Yes, that's me in the photos. I took them in my apartment today using a webcam. Sorry about the quality! I would say "please don't use them, but who would want to use a photo showing my apartment? ^^;
2. The "White Rabbit" concept, of course, came from the incomparable Lewis Carroll and his novel "Alice in Wonderland." 
3. The white-suited rabbit version?  Inspired by Kiyo Kyujuo's manga version of Trinity Blood. More specifically, the character Cain Knightlord in "Stand By Me." Reference here: www.zerochan.net/1666608#full
4. Yes, the rabbit is wearing -that- ring ( this one: dc496.4shared.com/img/-qQj7Qww… But it has a bigger brother now. You can see it on the Rabbit's lapel in the last picture. Not half bad!

 

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SinistrosePhosphate
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Greetings.
I am not an articulate person. But I'll try.

Yours truly was born in 1981, Taipei, Taiwan.
Moved to Canada in 1993.
During the day, he's "Dextrose Phosphate": a recently-employed resident physician trying to look sharp while learning how to save lives. At night, he becomes "Sinistrose Phosphate": an amateurish busy-body who dreams of one day getting a hang at this "art" business.

... in my humble opinion, neither one's going great, really.

Despite all that... thanks a million for visiting my little proverbial hole in the wall (of the Internet). Stay a while, have some tea, leave a comment... maybe even start a conversation.

I'm not an articulate person, but I will most definitely try.

Current Residence: Newfoundland, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Various (with exception to Rap and Country)
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player
Shell of choice: ... Nautilus?
Wallpaper of choice: Whatever the landlord puts on the walls.
Skin of choice: My own, definitely. I'm born with it.
Personal Quote: "One apple a day... keeps me and my ilk away."
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TheQuiet1s Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2014  Student General Artist
Hey, stranger! I saw your facts on that front page story and decided to check you out. Boy, I love scholarly people. Don't mind me, just adding a watch :) Good luck getting the hang of both of your businesses!
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AterImber Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014
:iconyellowsparklesplz: :wave: Hi there SinistrosePhosphate!! :wave: :iconyellowsparklesplz:

 :iconpurplesparklesplz: :squee: I just wanted to say thank-you SO much for adding me to your DeviantWatch!! :squee: :iconpurplesparklesplz:

 :iconletmehugyouplz: I promise I will try my best not to disappoint you with my Deviations! :iconletmehugyouplz:

:heart: Thank-you so much for your support! :heart:
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Maivory Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Commission : Lelio
Finished kind of lol enjoy so sorry *runs*
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IllyDragonfly Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014   Writer
Until now I found just these rhymes about fire, since you asked me to take a look around for this 'hour'. I like it a lot because I heard about them in a recent scary movie named The Awakening. Look for 'Ladybird, ladybird' in wikipedia

Ladybird, ladybird fly away home,

Your house is on fire and your children are gone,

All except one,

And her name is Ann,

And she hid under the baking pan.

A shorter, grimmer version is also widespread:

Ladybird, ladybird, fly away home,

Your house is on fire,

Your children shall burn!

Or like that.

Ladybug, Ladybug, fly away home

Your house is on fire and your children are gone,

All except one,

Sweet Charlotte Ann,

And she hid under the frying pan.

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daegfire Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
Just realised that I'm not watching you XP always thought I was, I see all your paper cutting come up in groups So I guess I assumed I was !? Haha 
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IllyDragonfly Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014   Writer
Finally some are submitting to our contests, hurrah! :la: I knew we just had to be patient and keep going. I even persuaded a friend of mine to become a member because she liked the challenge and the group. :thumbsup:
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IllyDragonfly Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2014   Writer
Hi! :D
The next 'hour' will start soon, it's alright if you'll post the journal for Five O' clock?
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Amelie-the-Fox Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2014   Traditional Artist
皇兄幫幫我啊。。。!
可不可以替我翻譯《夷平六合 ·  虎視天下》這個畫題啊。。。秦始皇畫好了。。。TTwTT
我會報答你的~!O3O
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JohnnyandMe Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist
I got a question. Is believing that snakes are in the toilet or pipes and are trying to bite me when I use the restroom cause I used to believe that when I was a kid? And you know my history so was I delusional even as a kid?
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vw1956 Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank You very much for the :star: on angel2 by vw1956 :airborne:
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